Friday, July 30, 2010

Status Report

Our men cracked the password. For those of you who are still tuning in, here is the report. Best you hear it from me than from someone else:


As of July 23rd, the warehouse building is inactive. Late in the night, a large fire tore through the building and destroyed 85% of its equipment. The remainder of the building is heavily damaged. From what we have seen, there was a fight of a large scale before the fire started.


Two bodies were pulled out of the warehouse, heavily burned. Through DNA testing and medical examination, we discovered the identities:

Albert Conaghan- Forensic specialists found three bullets lodged in the victim's chest, fired from what appears to be a 9mm handgun. The weapon has not yet been found. Medical specialists say he was dead before the fire started, likely from the aforementioned wounds.

Eric Riley- Body was found with one bullet in its stomach, this one a .44 magnum slug. The gun in question was found several feet from where the first body lay; the weapon is too burned to pry fingerprints off it, though experts are still attempting to. Medical specialists claim that he bled out while awaiting rescue.


The cause of the blaze is still unknown. Fire officials are still on sight for examination.





The exact whereabouts and condition of Ezekiel Strahm are currently unknown. It is likely he is somewhere among the rubble, but at this time we do not have definite knowledge.

During investigation of his house, we discovered a corpse hidden in his garage. The body suffered a devastating shotgun blast to the chest; time of death estimates to no more than a month ago. A weapon that would cause this wound was found in Strahm's house, the barrel indeed looking as though it had bee fired.

Because of this, and because of the possibility of him being behind the deaths of both Mr. Conaghan and Mr. Riley, Strahm is now considered a wanted felon. A warrant has been put out for his arrest, and operatives are hunting him down. If anyone has any knowledge of his whereabouts, please come forward immediately.

We understand that he has promised a tape of his exploits. As of now, we are still searching for this tape, although I am curious as to whether it exists. At best, it is probably too burned to be of any use, but time will tell.

Please do not leave any questions for me, as I will not be returning to answer them. Take the facts for what they are, and if anyone knows where Ezekiel Strahm can be found, speak up immediately.

Thank you for your time.

-Agent Fisk

Friday, July 23, 2010

Evening the Score

I've never been one for making blogs. If the guys in my department found out that ole' Zeke Strahm was pouring his heart out on an online journal, then all credibility I've ever had to being a male goes right out the window. Ironically, it was my partner Elizabeth- who happened to be female- that suggested I keep this up. You see some cruel things being a detective; keeping a journal of any kind was always cheaper than seeing a shrink for your feelings. And I've done it, but I never expected to be all emo or whiny on here.

But over these last few months, this blog has been an incredible place of comfort for me as I try to make sense of a life that is slowly crumbling to pieces. I've found people that understand what I've gone through, and for good or bad most of them have stuck through it. I've shown my best and I've shown my worst, and I may not be the most popular guy in the world, but at least I hope I've proven my worth.

You guys knew all along what was going on. I know I didn't always listen; I know I wasn't always appreciative. I know at times I was too far gone or just a big dick to be supported. But a lot of you guys kept through ir, and I guess...well, thanks for that.

I just wish there was something more I could do...but I think I'm out of time for that.

This morning, I got this letter in my mail. It didn't have a return address, other than the initials AC; I didn't need a coder to tell me what that meant. The letter said this:

Dear Mr. Strahm,

It is very unfortunate that Ms. Armeen met such a terrible demise. Tragic, but inevitable, it was. I think it is time that we talked, man to man, without any interruptions. Mr. Riley is still here; we are taking very good care of him. We can discuss his release, if you'd prefer; I think he has suffered enough. I think it's time we finished this without resorting to any more...violence.

I shall expect you to come around seven o'clock. Tonight. You know where I will be.

I await your arrival,


Looks like tonight is the night. Maybe it's Slender Man's will or just fate giving me a shot at redemption. Either way, this is my last chance.

I'm going back to the warehouse tonight. Maybe I'll find Eric and get him out without a hitch; maybe I'm walking to my death. But I have to try. I'm done being indecisive. My only hope is that Eric's still alive, and that they're not trying to taunt me with a corpse.

I'm leaving around 6:30. I've contacted the chief; he says he'll get help out over to me. I don't want to go in their alone; some back up, of any kind, would help me out a lot.

If you guys don't hear back from me in a week...well, then, I guess you are on your own.

...It feels weird now. I don't know what, but I guess I feel...alive again. I'm not fearing for my life right now. I feel like going in there and conquering.

But here is my message to Slender Man:

I know who you are.

And I know what you're doing.

You're going to burn for what you did to us.

Once I'm done skinning your little bitch boy Conaghan, I'm coming after you.

One of you isn't coming out of that warehouse alive at the end of the night.

I'm hoping it'll be both of you.

You can't win forever.

If not me, someone's going to kill you.

I promise you that.

And here is my message to the people out there, reading this, fighting him:

I know at the end of the blogs, they tell you that when the time comes that he comes after you, that you should end it yourself. Take your own life so that he doesn't take it.

Well today, I tell you the opposite.

Don't quit.

Don't give up.


Fight him as long and as hard as you can.

He may win in the end.

But don't give him the satisfaction of an easy kill.

Let the fucker work for his food.

You can't keep letting him think that just because he holds the royal flush that it means you have to just fold.

If enough people fight, if enough people give him a good run may be enough to finish him.

So please.

Don't give up.

Give it everything you've got.

If you have to end it before he gets you, then do it.

But give it your all before you do.

Give him one hell of a show before you do.

I'm taking a camera with me, when I go into the warehouse. I want to get Slender Man on tape, present it to the government. Get the word out. I know I said that word of mouth is how he gets stronger, but...people need to know. Government may help to stop it. If there's awareness, then people won't be meaningless victims.

That's my hope, anyway.

I've got a contact, outside of the police, that will upload the tape if...well, if I can't. If I go down and the camera is with may take time, but the tape will find its way. I hope, at least.

And I also have one final request...I know this may be a lot, but if you can...if I don't come back...

Tell my story to those who want to hear it. Tell them everything about me; tell them my bad qualities, along with my good, and let them judge me how they see me. People need to know what happened here; what I went through, what Lizzie went through. They need to know that there are people out there that are willing to fight Slender Man. Willing to get rid of him permanently.

Tell my story. Tell it well.

I've got to go get ready...I've got to get everything I need...

Keep fighting. Don't give up.

Thanks for reading, and helping.

And...well...I'll catch you guys on the flip side.

I love you Lizzie.

There...I finally said it.

Fucking cold-hearted bitch.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Final Thoughts

So, what did I learn from this?

Basically, Slender Man has been around forever, but was only primarily recorded during the 1500s and now. He must have done something then to garner such attention, just as he's doing now. And I know what's drawing him to people now. Alex's videos. Yeah, SomethingAwful presented him, but Alex was the first known person to record him and Jay posted them to the world. Now, thanks to the internet, there may be no stopping him from reaching out to the world.

What caused the 500 year gap has to be how information went around. There were no telephones then. No internet. The only known recorder of him disappeared. He could just drop off social radar. But now, it's too late. He's everywhere. He's like a fucking disease. The more people know, the stronger he gets.

He has teleportation, and time travel. A couple of you seem to disagree on the omniscience; I say, if he can time travel, why CAN'T he know everything? The guy's been doing this job for centuries; who's to say that everything he's done isn't based off prior knowledge?

Some of you have also said that salt or water could possibly kill him. I don't buy it; it's too easy. If someone could get rid of him just by throwing a bucket of cold water on him, wouldn't he have been gone way before now? I know sometimes the best way to kill something is the most obvious way, but even still, this is kinda reaching.

Too many people have died without fighting him. Some people never had a fucking chance, the poor bastards. Some are still out there...Prism and M and the it only a matter of time? Will they be found as well? Or will they be able to fight him off.

As for me, I'm seeing now the reason behind him getting me. He's wanted me for years. He failed to get me as a child. Lizzie too, if my suspicion is correct. So he takes some of his other victims, Sam and Victoria and Jessica, and he waits until it's time for us to play into his hands.

And that's all it was from the very beginning. It wasn't the kids he wanted. It wasn't Conaghan. Slender Man orchestrated it so that he could get to us.

We were supposed to die from the very beginning.

And now he's ready to come and finish what he started.

But so am I.

Monday, July 19, 2010


Okay, well...even with all of that explained, or as close to explained as I can get it...there's still one thing I don't get.


Where did she fit in? Why drag her into this? That's the one thing that I still can't wrap my head around; why did she meet the fate she met?

I can't help but think that if I hadn't let her read that comment on my blog, she never would have started researching. I mean, yeah, I showed her the first half of the Marble Hornets videos, but that was a different point in our lives, as well as six months before we started this case. I don't think that should qualify to her being a target. But showing her that remark? That definitely got her going.

And once you get her going, she doesn't stop. A lot of the basic websites, I found through her, and I can't even begin to think about what she found that I don't know about. I don't know if she ever found the blogs...maybe she did. Maybe she found out about all these people...but why not keep them for me?

Doesn't matter now, I suppose...

Lizzie said that the first time she saw Slender Man was at the carnival...but that's not really right, is it? She was acting funny before then too. We didn't normally fight that bad, not since I was starting out in the force. And there were little things, her obsession with the drawings, her obsession with the journal...I know I said that that was how she worked, but looking back on it, it was more than that.

Jesus, how bad did he get her at the beginning? Was it even him? Or was it just the idea of him, the warp that he seems to pull people into that make them want to know more?

But she's smart. She must have realized what it would do. Why else would she ask Eric for help? But she must have realized what that would do to him too, though... I don't know, I don't know, it doesn't make sense to me.

How long after the carnival did he really start stalking her? Barely a month later, she stopped coming to work due to sickness...must have been sometime then. But why didn't he come to me too? Why wait until after the warehouse? If I was in the house with her, wouldn't it have been easier to kill two birds with one stone?

She was right about Conaghan. He wasn't the real target. But did she know who it was? She said during our fight that she didn't think it was actually Slender Man, that it was someone using him as a cover...but was that really what she was thinking, or was she just saying it to calm me...

God, too many questions here. Lizzie never told me anything...and I never bothered to listen. Now she's taken her secrets to the grave with her.

I just don't get why he went after her...I know he wanted to draw me out, but she didn't deserve this...he was torturing her, if he wanted to draw me out, he would've just kept her...

Unless that theory of mine is true...and everyone that has ever been stalked by him now was stalked by kids...

...Did you see him back then too, Lizzie?

Is that why you got wrapped up in all this? if your life wasn't tragic enough...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


One of the reports that interested me was the use of a proxy; a human that acts like a messenger or servent. Since Slender Man can't talk himself, he uses some humans to be his “voice.” The proxy can simply deliver the message, or do Slender Man's crimes himself, as to throw off anyone going on his trail.

Throughout all the Slender stories, we've seen examples of this. In Marble Hornets, it's the masked man. In Just Another Fool, it was eventually Logan. In Who are You it was visionsleep.

For me, it's Albert Conaghan.

Ever since his name first got dragged into the case, Conaghan's been nothing but a pain in my ass. For over a month he led us on a wild goose chase and when we finally caught up with him all he did was give a cryptic message. Now I understand more the motivation behind his doings. He was just the messenger for the real deal.

Alright, did you get dragged into this...

He told me that Slender Man had gotten to him six months prior to our conversation, so...back in November, that would make it. As honest as he probably was during that part of our conversation, my natural distrust of him is telling me otherwise. I have to be sure, though.

The other cases made against him over the years all indicate he is perfectly capable of kidnapping, rape, and what makes this different? Probably that they never found the victims this time. Either dead or alive, they were all found in the past, give or take one or two. But not now...

I'm guessing he's delivering them to Slender Man, directly or indirectly. He's made it so that the two look almost identical now in appearance. Both act the same he copying him?

He did make the real claim that Slender Man was his “angel of death”. I never took a rapist for a religious man...unless Slender Man is the one putting it into his head? Not all that unlikely. Maybe that's how Slender Man gets his victims to follow him? I don't know...I guess it varies on the case.

What I don't get is, why him. The Masked character, assuming it is Tim, he may be a jerk, but he's still a regular kid. Logan was just a lost soul, trying to find some inner purpose. “Visionsleep” was the protagonist, just a different form. All of them regular good kids, if somewhat flawed.

So why did he pick the convicted pedophile this time around?

Maybe it's because these characters are flawed. Maybe Slender Man offers them some sort of a purpose. But they must know it's a joke, right? Probably not...he is pretty powerful...

Maybe Conaghan was picked to lure me out. Slender Man knew what Conaghan did to that girl from my class; maybe he knew I would go to the ends of the earth to flush him out...was that his plan all along? To use Conaghan to get to me?

If it was, then I sure as hell bought it. Hook line and sinker. Fuck, I'm an idiot. I spent so much time going after him because I thought he was the grand master in this whole game, when in reality, he's just the puppet being moved around on strings.

I'm guessing, also, that Conaghan's the one holding Eric. He said during the interrogation that it wasn't Eric's turn yet. Which means he's still in our dimension, or planet, or whatever. But where could he be? In the warehouse?

...Behind the door, perhaps?

That kick I heard. Maybe that was him. Maybe that's where Conaghan's holding him. God damn it, I was right there, nothing between us but a fucking door...

...Conaghan's been awful quiet since that night. What's he been up to? I have been completely out of touch with everyone at the department since that night...I'm sure they would have told me if they finally caught him.

Which means they might still be there...What are you waiting for, Al?

Friday, July 9, 2010

Slender Man

Thanks for the help. I read enough to get my investigation underway. I know some are just games here, but every little bit helps, believe it or not. Sorry it took so long to post, but going through all the evidence is a process and I didn't want to post until I had something concrete to talk about.

Alright...let's get started. I'll divide it up into sections:


Based off the reports, Slender Man was created on some forum about a year ago. SomethingAwful forum; how appropriate. His roots, however, go back way longer than that. I can't account for how much of this is legit, but what I've gathered is this:

From a documentary I found on Youtube, Slender Man can go as far back as the Ancient Egyptians. His form popped up in hieroglyph on the wall, hell if I know what it was supposed to mean. Medieval times is when he seemed to pop up the most; around the time this “Der Ritter” woodcut keeps popping up.

I don't know what to make of these woodcuts. They may be showing something with multiple legs, it may just be one of those “what do you see” pictures. But the picture of a knight with multiple bony legs thrusting a sword into another knight's side would definitely scare the shit out of anyone back then. And the one where the tall knight is grabbing the child through the door while the parents do nothing but watch...

The story that gave me nightmares last night was the one of the mother in the woods with her two daughters and they encounter the Slender Man. His voice told her to tell her daughters to lay on the ground and kill each other, but one of the girls wouldn't do it and ran away. When the father came home, she told him what was happening and he went to try and stop it. At the end of the night, the mother returns with the heads of the sister and the father, and said that because she wouldn't do what he said, his punishment on her would be ten times worse. And then he takes her...

Story or not, it scared the shit out of me.

After that reports have him pop up all throughout history, but the medieval times and our current time is when he seems to have done the most damage, giving about a five hundred year time span in between. What is so important about these two periods of time? What was going on then that attracted him to Germany, and what's going on now that's attracting him to America? Not the Plague, that was two hundred years before its time...though I have to wonder how much damage he did then too.

There has to be something significant about that time period and this one...any thoughts?

At any rate, he could trace all the way back to the Stone Age as far as I know. Torturing humanity since the beginning of time...

It is unknown where he comes from. That seems to be the thing no one can agree on. Whether it's from another planet or another dimension, or...he was ALWAYS here, even before we were. I've personally decided to combine the three ideas: He's from another planet, in another dimension, and has been coming to our planet even before we were created. With that in mind, it's hard to imagine just how old he is...unless there's more than one. But I'm not going to continue that thought, because the thought of a million Slender Mans would scare the shit out of any grown man...


Slender Man, as we all know by now, is a tall, stick-thin man, apparently ageless, that stands anywhere between six and seven feet tall. He has no hair of any kind, and his head lacks eyes, nose, mouth, and ears. That's four of the five human senses gone right there, and I know he doesn't operate on touch, so process of elimination means he must operate on some kind of a sixth sense. What it is, exactly, I don't know. Maybe omniscience? That would make sense, given its...unusual abilities (more below.)

Aside from his height and lack of facial features, his most terrifying feature is his arms. They're long, they always seem to be palms facing up, and when he gets pissed off they turn into tentacles. And then he grows tentacles on his back. I think the overall number of arms he's ever had are ten, but it can vary, I guess, depending on how pissed off you get him.

Why the tentacles? My guess is it's kind of like the clown from IT. He makes himself out to be human, but underneath is something worse, something alien. I suppose only the people he's actually taken would know...something to ponder about, though.


Slender Man's powers are mostly guessed at, but general consensus seems to be that he possesses some form of teleportation. He has been shown at times to appear and disappear completely at random, which either serves to support this theory or indicates that he is very fast.

He also seems to have some sort of time travel ability; there have been a couple of instances of a person being somewhere one second, and then being somewhere else hours- or sometimes days- later, though they will not have noticed any passing of time.

It is this ability that leads me to believe that he also has some form of omniscience; he knows everything. Past, present, future. Things that have happened, are happening, or won't happen until much later. Perhaps this is why he works at completely random times and places; because he knows when, exactly, he'll be acquiring new prey.

Another ability also involves some sort of technopathy. He is known to jam up cameras and distort audio devices. That would explain what happened at the station the night Sam disappeared. It would also explain what happened to my walkie the night Lizzie...died. This ability may revolve around where he comes from, wherever that may be.

In addition, he seems to hold a hypnotic power over his victims; several have recorded themselves getting up and doing things that they don't remember doing. Hypnosis would definitely provide an explanation to several of these occurrences.


The only known symbol for Slender Man currently is the Operator symbol; a circle with a big “X” running through the center. Throughout our case, we came across enough Operator symbols drawn on paper to redecorate my entire house. As far as I know, no one seems to know what exactly it is, but the idea of it is simple: whenever it appears, he appears.

When we interrogated Sam, he said that it was his “mark”. A way to mark his victims, let them know that they're next. I'm still on the fence as to whether or not I believe in that. It would make sense if it was; again, whenever someone finds that sign, it usually means he is not far behind. But all the appearances of the symbol that I have observed thus far have been completely random...or maybe that's just what he wants me to think? Again, the omniscience may be what leads him to put the marks everywhere.

But then, why do people draw them? Maybe it's to mark themselves? Provide a warning to those that are next? Or maybe it's just a part of the hypnosis...I don't know. Anyone who has an idea, feel free to offer a thought.

Modus Operandi

Slender Man's style is as a silent stalker. Always he is hiding, just out of sight, so that if a camera is on the person operating it usually doesn't pick up on his appearance until they view the recording later. He seems to have a pattern of stalking them in public, then tracking them down to their house, peering through the windows, and then eventually making his way inside. The ending...well, there's no definite ending, I think it's just one of those things where you're left to your own imagination. Usually involving disappearance.

It's still not known where he takes the victims...either he eats them or he takes them to his dimension, or...I just don't know. It could be anything. No one's ever come back to tell the tale, so it's assumed they either die or end up in a lifeless state, like anyone who ever endured the Dementor's kiss.

At some point, I'm guessing around the time he's found your house, he'll use the hypnosis to lure you outside. What he does then...I don't know. Shows you things, maybe? I honestly can't vouch from my own experiences. I don't remember ever going outside to meet him.

Then again, there have been a lot of things going on that I don't remember happening...

To understand his workings now, I need to look over my case:

Victoria Krell: Probably the easiest victim. She lived out in the woods, plenty of places for him to hide and stalk her from. Low on the social ladder, so no one would really miss her if she disappeared. Outsider. Loner. All these things probably made her an easy target; he seems to take those who are alone.

Jessica Albright: This one still confuses me, in honesty. She was Krell's opposite in almost every way, and yet she ended up in the same boat. I'm still not entirely certain when she first spotted him, but he got his hooks into her. The message to me from the letters in her journal makes me wonder if that was him working through her, but another part makes me think that was her getting a message out to me...I don't understand how that one would work, though, unless he showed her who I was...

Sam Ford: Poor Sam. He just could not catch a break. He and his friends spotted Slender Man together, but he was the only one that the thing went after. I still remember the interrogation, how out of control he got. And right when he was safe, in our hands, he got taken.

The kids in the apartment: I don't know what to think there. They went missing a while ago, but the way they turned up leads me to believe that Slender Man wasn't really behind this one. Or if he was...well, then, he's a sick fuck.

Eric Riley: Eric, I think, is the exception to the rule that I'm going to post at the end of this entry. He didn't get really involved until Lizzie asked him for help. I remember he was getting sick towards the end; that should have been the big sign for me. Where are you, Eric...

The sickness, I think, is a result of the time traveling and teleportation abilities. Anyone who watches Lost or Heroes can tell you that both of those does a number on a person; tumors, aneurisms, internal injuries, the works. Perhaps it is this that gets the victims so weak when he finally takes them...


This is the spot where I look over the blogs you guys sent me and try to find something to help me. Now, unfortunately, I can't post everything from them on here. A lot of the more recent ones (ones posted in the last month or so) didn't make the cut, mainly because I needed to focus on those that have been around for a while. If there are some in the newer ones that you guys think I should know about, feel free to let me know.

With that said, I suppose the logical place to start would be:

Marble Hornets

This was the first publically documented account of Slender Man's actions. It raised the big questions, but as the series progressed it focused more on Totheark and the Masked Man and left a lot of Slender questions unanswered. Jay's not really on Slender Man's hitlist; not completely. After the visits to the house, it became apparent that his influence would take hold on him, but Jay was left mostly with the Masked Man to deal with. Alex is who Slender Man wants, but as to why that is, it's unknown.

Marble Hornets also raised the belief that Slender Man can only be seen through digital means, i.e., camera, cell phone, etc. Well, I'll tell you now, that's not true. I've seen him, and I've seen him in person with my own eyes. Maybe to other people, he can only be seen on camera, but he doesn't just show up whenever the recording button is one.

Alex, Jay...wherever you guys are now, I hope you're staying safe...

Just Another Fool

The first written account on a blog. To date, I'm still not sure if what Matt saw in Iraq was Slender Man or his mind going away from him, but the notebook he sent Logan certainly sent Slender Man Logan's way. Not long after, Logan went nuts, and Josh took over. Logan sent all these cryptic messages and warnings...definitely more Totheark than a Slender victim. Is it possible he was the proxy here (I'll get more into the role of the proxy in the next entry)?

Logan eventually killed himself...I assume. What about Josh? What happened to him? What did he encounter that kept him from coming back after going to the police station? I guess that's just another mystery we'll never know...

Always Looking Back

To be honest, I don't really understand this one. Can someone clarify for me? I read the most recent post after the author's note and what I read just confused me too much to look into it further.

Curious Little Girl

Another confusing one. She's being stalked by something else; don't know what it is, and I don't understand how it helps me.

Who Are You?

Another game, but this one raised interesting questions. James's constant under attack from Slender Man seemed to give him a dual-personality, this “visionsleep” or whatever the fuck it is. This is the only time I can recall encountering a split-personality result from Slender Man. Then there's also that box, which is another mystery that I guess will never be solved.

Another interesting this is Slender Man's arms. They change in number continuously. And it's never the same for each person; James saw eight, Jess saw four. I guess it all depends on how badly he wants you.

The blindfold is intriguing too. What powers, exactly, does it have over closing the drapes? Whatever it is, it worked...for a while. But I guess nothing's permanent, huh?

Rainbow Life

I sent a comment to Prism. She reminds me so much of Lizzie...I really hope nothing bad happens to her, but the way he is seeping into her poetry and her life...and she said people have died around her. Who, exactly? Her friends? Family? I hope she updates again soon, before it's too late. Hang in there, kid...


I gotta admit, these guys have some serious balls. Probably the only time I've seen someone that I think honestly has a good chance of holding their own in a fight against Slender Man, and that's the honest truth. At the moment, though, they need to keep their eyes on Chuckie Cheese (the scrawny kid that covers food...what? His face reminds me of a rat, kind of) there, because Slender Man seems to be doing the most work on him. Puff Ball might be after, then Billy Mays (yes, I gave them all nicknames, so sue me). I think they can hold their own, though. They just need to keep it together, and stay together, until they realize what they're dealing with so that they can fight it.


A tumblr one, but seemingly with connections to Everyman after her site was seen on one of their videos being looked at. The girl is pretty cute...either she doesn't acknowledge Slender Man or she's just not willing to talk. Understandable, in both cases. Hopefully they meet up, because I think she has a better chance with the HYBRID crew than being by herself.


These videos have Slender Man appearances up the fiery ass. I don't know how Milo lasted that long when Slender Man was such a strong presence in his life. This account backs up the theory that Slender Man can only be seen through the camera, but then how could Noah have missed it when he first posted the videos? Maybe it's one of those things Slender Man can pick and choose. Other than that, nothing too noticeable, other than an Operator symbol and Logan's name scratched in wood. Not sure what the latter means yet...

Discuss the Findings

I...don't even know what to make of this one. To be honest, I'm not sure it's something to really freak out over. Maybe I'm wrong. But we'll see.

The Tutorial

I like this one. The kid goes over what to do and what not to do. There should be a legit survival guide to this stuff. I don't know how much of it helps, but he's still kicking. My only gripe is that he has the balls to take a stab at me. Hey, asshole, I'm still here, aren't I? You think I'm writing this stuff because I think it's good literature? No. I've never myself called him that, and I don't plan to. So you just keep running and hiding like a good little boy, and I'm going to see if I can take this bitch down. Enjoy that fucking coffee. I prefer home blend myself.

...Sorry about the know how I get.

In my Head, In my Mind

This is the one that still angers me to no end. I know it's a game, but Jesus Christ, she knew how to kill him and she didn't tell us! I understand it would lead to death, but if you're going to off yourself anyway, that kind of puts the whole “taking the secret to the grave” into a redundant mess. Leave the way to kill him with someone who doesn't care if it kills him. I don't care if it's a game. It could have helped. You could have helped me. But now you're dead. Thanks for nothing.

Overall, though, they all pretty much go through the same thing. Slender Man keeps coming to get them. Some are gone now, some are still trying to fight. For some, it's only a matter of time.


My biggest theory is this:

Slender Man's theme, from the beginning when all this mess about him started coming to light, was that he targeted children. The documentary showed the kidnapping the man's son, and then the farmer's daughter. Both men killed themselves not long afterwards. Slender Man has known to leave victims begging for suicide, killing animals, and causing devastation.

If such is the case, then why are all these blogs and videos popping up of him going after people ranging from high school to my age and older? That doesn't fit into the meme at all. But the answer, I think, is a simple one.

He already tried.

I think- and this may just be me- but I think that every single person that has ever recorded something involving Slender Man had an encounter with him when they were children. For some reason- maybe they forgot about it, maybe they had a guardian who knew how to protect them, or maybe, in my case, they simply moved to a new location- he didn't get them then. But then they grew older, and Slender Man slowly crept his way back into their lives. My guess is, again, the omniscience; he knows when it will be that he takes them.

Again, Eric I think is the exception. Or maybe he isn't. Maybe he had an encounter too, and Lizzie's digging brought it up. But based on how quickly he was taken, I'm guessing he just got into the wrong situation at the wrong time.

As for the angel of death stuff, it's nonsense. People like to drag religion into what they can't explain, so when something alien comes to claim them, “angel of death” seems the most appropriate term to use. It's just a term. Like I said before, I don't think he does it because it's his job to. I think he does it because that's all he's ever known, or ever will know.

This is my deduction on the Slender Man. I may be right; I may be wrong. This may all be old news, but I may have found some things that are completely new. I did the best I could with what I was given. Take it for what it is, or leave it.

This is part one of my study. It'll probably be the longest part. Part two will be shorter, and should be up soon.

Today is my birthday.

I'm twenty-seven today.

Here's hoping I can make it to twenty-eight...

Friday, July 2, 2010

Getting My Head Back On Straight

It's amazing what you come to realize once you take your mind out of the bottle and get out of the house for a few hours.

This afternoon I took off for a walk, not really caring where I was going. Maybe I was hoping I would walk off and disappear from the world...I don't really remember now. But before I knew it, my feet- and it was MY feet, and no one else's influence, I'm sure of that- had led me into the woods. And I wasn't sure at first where exactly I was, or how my feet had taken me out this far, but then I relaxed when I saw that familiar two-story house in the middle of nowhere.

Yeah, that's right. My walk had taken me to Victoria Krell's house.

It's empty now. Her mom took off back in May, ran away with some trucker, or so we heard. I guess she figured we'd never find her daughter, so her drunken ass took off with the first man she came across. If I had thought it had been shabby before, now it really looked forlorn. Leaves were clogging up the gutter, the windows were dirty, and there was a hole in the roof, probably caused by a raccoon, that I'm sure had not been there the last time we were there.

Last time we were there...back when all of this first started...

I stared at the house, and inside I felt a deep feeling of regret. We should have found that girl. We should have found her, and Jessica, and poor Sam. They should all be home now, Victoria arguing with her mom, Jessica with her boyfriend on a Friday night, and Sam skateboarding with his friends. School's been out for a couple of weeks for them; they should be home enjoying it, not wherever they are now. They didn't deserve this. They were just kids. They didn't do anything wrong.

And then I started feeling angry. None of us deserved this. I went three months trying so hard to be their protector, but now I'm just like them- a victim. How the fuck did this happen? Now they're gone, and the world has moved on and forgotten them and I'm all that's left, all that is there to try and make sense of it. It's not fair. It's just not fair...

He's not fair.

And it's time I start doing something about it. I'm done just talking about it. I want, I want him dead. I'm talking about ripping his arms off and beating him to death with them. I'm talking about sticking my foot so far up his ass my shoe imprint gives him facial features. I'm talking stone cold, bury him six feet under dead.

And I'm going to do it.

I haven't responded to comments, but I have read. For those of you giving up on me, go right ahead. World needs plenty of hate. For those who still try to encourage, I thank you. I'm not the easiest guy to get along with, and I don't intend to change who I am, but...well, thanks, I guess.

But the consensus is the same: opening the door. I want to know what's behind it too, because I'm fairly certain it's someONE instead of someTHING. And someONE means there's a survivor, and I don't know how much time they have left.

But I can't just barge in.

Look at it this way: if you were a special forces team on a mission to retrieve a captured soldier, do you just go in guns blazing with no plan other than to run and gun and wing it? No, you don't. That just results in getting the whole team killed. You get your intel, you map the area, you make a plan, and THEN you go in.

I've got the plan, and I've got the map. What I don't have, though, is the intel.

I need to fully know what I'm up against. I need to know Slender Man, inside and out. I don't want to just go in there and be in way over my head. I need to know what I'm up against.

That's where you come in.

I've got a few sites that Lizzie was looking up, but they all pretty much say the same thing. I can find out the basics on my own. But I need to bring it deeper than that. And I know a few of you are into this Slender Man stuff like it's your job, so...

I need to find the blogs. There has to be others out there, like me, like Logan Renault, who are going through something like this. Some may just be games, some may be the real thing...I don't know. But I need to find them, and I need to see what they've gone through. Maybe they have something the experts have missed.

There has to be a way to take him down. There has to be something I missed. I need to see if it's out there.

I know it's a bit of a request, coming from me...and I don't doubt anyone who turns away from my request, but if you won't help me, point me in the direction I need to go. I'm a detective. I do my job based off the clues and the evidence presented to me. I think these blogs may help me do that.

So please, help me...because I want to get this son of a bitch.